Merry Christmas & Happy Hanahkah...
This is the strangest and saddest Christmas because of the tragic events that happened just a few days ago. It took me a few days to feel what actually had happened. I think I was in a numb state of shock. After the funeral on Tuesday all of the emotions hit me like a ton of bricks. I just wanted to go to sleep, wake up and hear that it had all been a bad dream. Yesterday I was at the grocery store and tears just starting pouring down my face. I found myself crying at random times and without warning. I don't want to be depressing at the holidays but this is reality. Today is Christmas. I am doing better today - I think that being with family last night lifted me a little. There are no words right now to make the pain that I see the Ogden family experiencing go away. And being that we live right next door to them (Josh is one of Ryan's best friends) and that we love them with all our hearts — I think it's going to be a long road. But God's grace is sufficient. He can give us beauty for ashes. At the funeral the Pastor mentioned that Josh said something to this effect "the pain of losing Norah does not outweigh the gift that her life was to us".
" suppose that the earthly lives she and i shared for a time are in reality... two eternal somethings. those somethings could be pictured as two eternal circles. two circles that touched. but those circles, above all the point at which they touched, are the very thing i am mourning for, homesick for, famished for. you tell me 'she goes on.' but my heart and body are crying out, come back, come back, come back. be a circle touching my circle..."